WEDNESDAY, MAY 20, 2009
I am about to enter a huge change in my life. One that doesn't require anyone's ruling over me but my own. I'll be stepping out from my parents' nest and truly living life. My hope and prayer is that it will be a life of dedication to my wonderful Father and one pleasing to him. Ultimately that is most important to me.
The big change that I am referring to is joining the Army. It feels right to me, but being human our emotions can be confused with other things. Naturally I am extremely nervous. Heck, I'll be staying the night in a hotel in Seattle! I've never done that before!!! Let alone without my folks. I'll be leaving for Seattle on the ferry at around 3p today, stay overnight in Seattle, and then wake up at o'dark 4:30 in the morning to go to MEPS. Military Entrance Processing Station, for those who may or already have asked. Gah! I'm gonna die I'm so freaked out of my mind for doing something so huge!
I have many reasons for wanting to join the Army.
1) It's a proud and honorable job, helping protect your country in the way you can. I myself stare at soldiers walking around in their uniforms, wanting to be part of that camaraderie.
2) My desire - It's still burning just as hot as four years ago.
3) I truly want the experience that people just can't talk about. I want to be there to see what's going on behind the scenes. I dislike not knowing things myself and I despise biased news all the more - although I do love FOX. The only being that I can truly trust is my cat ot to try and eat me, and God who's using my heart and body to affect others. Heh, the latter's the least I can do for my Father because he's been there and done so much for me - not even mentioning that he promises an eternal life on certain terms. :D Anyway, I'm all about hands on. I want to go over to the warring zones so I can know what I'm praying for. Erm, don't tell my folks that.
4) The commarderie is a huge one for me. I like the fact that you have to watch each others' backs. I find that to be a great feeling to have but don't get very often.
5) I like feeling like I'm respected for my good opinions, which is what I'll eventually get as I go up the ranks and get more experience. I'll have a rank so I'll know my place too.
6) Challenging! Need I say more? I like being challenged because it stands for the chance to grow, build character, mature, etc. Life gives you this, the military grinds you with it. :D:D:D I'm probably regret saying that...
7) I feel like anyone who joins the military is doing something important - from E-1 to an O-9, it doesn't matter. Every one of them deserve a bonus just for being. Of course, rapists and thieves and whatnot really shouldn't be there, but what can you do? Big brother's gonna find out sometime and by the time he does, more will have entered. Haha. Anyway, I want to feel like I'm doing what I consider important, not necessarily what others do. My parents say a stable good paying job is more logical and important. I say military. I'm just wired that way. Maybe going in will re-wire this crazy, dropped-on-floor head of mine. ;)
Well, I got to get outta here because dad will have another hissy fit if I don't spend time with him before he goes to work. [Sigh] Thanks for reading! It'll probably be another year before I add another post! Haha.
